You know, sometimes people are not satisfy with their current life. I am one of them. Today when I was listening to some business lecture, my business study's lecturer said that the society out there doesn't really think that Inti Student are XXXXXXXXX. (I dun think you wanna see this, PLUS, I dun feel like typing it out now.) but yea, the thoughts of job interview suddenly hits me.
I have to get my ass into a job interview right? But hell no I'm not prepared for any interview. and my language is so weak. Do you think I am able to find a job? Okay. I know it's really ridiculous for me to suddenly talk about me in 10 years time, but yea, I'm really scare you know.
And lately I have this low self-esteem thingi and it's FREAKING ME OUT! I hate myself when I feel like I am just a little part in the world. Yea, and there are Lots more out there that I DON'T KNOW.
and the worst part is, there's this "swollen person" inside me that says : " look around you, there are so many people are BETTER than you. Your music sucks, your piano sucks, Your language sucks. Whatever you do just SUCK! accept it eesuen! "
You see what I mean? Yea. I felt so useless. People who studied A-levels have no time to think about all this crap.."What is this?" I asked myself? "Is this some kinda joke? Is this some stupid self-discovery thingi that goes round and round in my head?"
Sometimes I even wake up in the morning and think, "what are you suppose to do today? lay down? ROt at home?
I AM WEAK.
