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Friday, July 9, 2010
I think this is the 1st time I use this word as title and I actually mean it. Yes I'm totally blank when Im typing this. I had no idea what am I suppose to write here but I have so much to tell. well, I dont even know if there's someone reading this. :O oh well.
Im sick of myself. mostly because I find myself having high expectations on whatever I do. Okay. Honestly, I compare everything with people. competition among peers are fine but not EXTREME! and I can tell you that Im THAT extreme until I will want to win everyone else in the class. (I mean like, at least get the top5 or something). This kind of feeling never happen to me BEFORE. and THIS particular feeling reminds me of what Mr.Q (my malay tuition teacher :D) used to say about Singaporeans because they are kia sues! And now, I'd become one of them, which is, a bad sign. I have high expectations on my results, assignments and presentations. Even if I got the highest mark in one of the presentation, I still think I not good enough. Such an ass right?
secondly, Im sick of .... all those nagging by you-know-who. they nag that I spend less time with them, nag about how often I go out, nag about how late I come back home. nag nag and NAG! I'm sorry I'm kinda tired of trying to be a good girl. I stayed at home just to make sure that you guys WONT get angry. It's not like Im having fun going out everyday right? stay at college, nag. study outside, nag. come back slightly late, nag. okay, part of me always tells me that they are parents, they worry about their children, but sometimes, I really wish to tell them something just like how Sam Witwicky told his dad :" You have to let me go dad."
thirdly, I'm sick of the assignments and presentations. Okay. I hate to talk about this. the lecturer should give us the assignments and presentations in the BEGINNING of the SEMESTER! not when we only left TWO AND A HALF MORE WEEKS! this is EFF-ffing pissing me off! Im like what the hell?! Im suppose to revise all the syllabus in two weeks time. PLUS, some of my lecturer didn't really finish teaching all the syllabus YET! and presentations and assignments are still FLYING IN this few weeks BEFORE that freaking exam!!
fourthly, I'm sick of college. Don't mention about it. I hate that Inti building. I hate all the restaurant and cafe's around because I'll have to pick a place to have my lunch during my break time. And the most I hate, is the management! =-=
fifthly, IM SICK OF EVERYONE WHO TELLS ME TO STUDY! Please stop. I can't stand it. I really don't know why.
Labels: I'm having emotional breakdown here, stress, things I can't cope
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